Monday, January 4, 2010

“You don't love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her”

this post has the potential to be a bagillion pages long; however, i'm not feeling up to par per say...

i gave blood for the first time a few hours ago! i failed the hemoglobin test the first time, but they pricked me again and i made it :) everything went smoothly until i was done and went to go to the bathroom. i started to feel nauseated and dizzy, so i went to sit down. before i knew it, people were surrounding me, a man was holding me up, i passed out, had a dream, woke up, and threw up. but i saved a life :)

on to more fun matters......IIIIIIIIIII GOTTTTTTTTTTTT MY PERIODDDDDDDDDDDDD BACKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :))))))))))))))))))))))

i literally jumped and cried and jumped and cried some was really emotional for me. my dream in life is to have a family and now it is possible for me. its almost like the final goodbye to ED. i don't miss it at all! oh, and i had a bacon burger for dinner tonight from outback. boo yaahh. so many people lately have been commenting on how great i look and how pretty i am...even jeff, although he does it anyways :) but i actually feel it now, and i know i'm beautiful. when i look in the mirror, i see what God gave me and i appreciate it. i have found a love for myself that is irreplaceable.

the period thing happened while i was in pennsylvania with jeff and his family...but i couldn't have cared less. except the car ride back, which was filled with carsickness and cramps. welcomed cramps :)

pennsylvania was the most awesome trip i have had recently...i miss it so much. we pretty much played in the snow alllllllllllll week. words can't describe, so i'll let the pictures do that talking:

the baby is ruby, jeff's niece. i also had a nice face plant in there, too :)

those are just a couple pictures...almost 400 were taken! i know, i have problems.

time for bedddd!!! giving blood took a lot out of me...and probably being on my period didn't help ;)

ciao bella!


  1. LINDSEY! Oh, I am so happy for you girl!
    You have such an incredible outlook on life, and I am so, so glad to hear that you've got this whole health thing under your belt ;) Really, it makes me so proud and happy that you are happy, and on top of things!
    You kick major ED ass!

    You really ARE such a beautiful girl, and it's about darn time you knew it and believed it! Because it is so true. Never, ever forget it! And if you ever do... You've got a LOT of people here to remind you of it.

    Eleanor. xo

  2. aww thank you so much eleanor! i love everyone of you guys, this blog has been key to my's so inspiring to read about everybody's stories and learn from them, and to know you aren't alone :)

    remember that YOU are a beautiful girl as well, and if you need a reminder, you have so many people here to help you along, too! love your blogg you are gettinggggg it girl :)

    ♥ lindsey

  3. that is so exciting!!! I'm so happy for you, girl :)

    And I'm so glad you have started to see and feel how beautiful you really are. That is such an accomplishment!


  4. thank you emily, you are looking great as well :)

    ♥ lindsey

  5. Hey Lindsey!
    Thanks for visiting my blog, it means a lot to me!!
    That is really fantastic news for you, and what a great way to know your body is healing and happy!! :)

    You are very beautiful gal, don't you ever forget it!!

    This is one of my favorite quotes and I thought you might like it!!

    “When we are dreaming alone, it is only a dream. When we are dreaming with others, it is the beginning of reality.” -Don Helder Camara

    Big hugs,

  6. thank you jessica! and thank you for the quote as well, it means a lot :) i used to think that quotes were kind of dumb, but i absolutely love reading them now.

    thanks for stopping by!

    ♥ lindsey