Tuesday, December 8, 2009

"I finally figured out the only reason to be alive is to enjoy it." - Rita Mae Brown

i really don't have that much to talk about, but i just feel like i should post something again. i guess not too much has been going on...


it was the most fun thing i can remember doing in a long time. i guess jumping up and down and screaming at the top of your lungs for 3 hours makes you happy :) not to mention, it was my birthday present from jeff! thankssssssssss jeffrey :) unfortunately, all of my pictures are on my phone. but here is the band for shits and giggles...

it also snowed this weekend! but it was only in richmond where the concert was, so it wasn't here when i got back home :(

i also was informed that i will have TWO more "nieces and/or nephews" next summer! two of jeff's sisters are preggo and i'm excited beyond words!! though i love ruby (jeff's niece) very much, i can't wait for even more bebes :))

this week has also been good for ED...i really haven't been concerned about food at all or had man bad thoughts. i have had extremely bad stomach pains for the past two days though. i had to leave calculus yesterday so i could cry it hurt so bad. the doctors just said i have IBS, and i've eliminated dairy from my diet, but i think something else is bothering me too. i told my mom that i can't deal with that kind of pain. so we'll see what happens with that...but i did break down a little saturday night, but it wasn't because i'm upset about my weight or anything. honestly, i'm scared about this new life that i am coming into minus ED. it's like my life has been split into parts: pre-ED, ED, and post-ED. i'm not trying to say at all that i'm hanging onto ED, but it takes a lot of courage to move on into the unknown without that crutch. i don't know what's going to happen with my life, but i'm ready to find out. i know it is intimidating, but a few years from now, i'll be out of college or in grad school, having a wonderful life. because of this, i've decided that i'm going to live in the moment, and brave out these first few steps into "normalcy." God never gives you anything you can't handle, and everything happens for a reason. for some reason, this happened to me, and i'm going to take it and learn from it. i will have a happy life, and i will have a family some day. period. :) [no pun intended]

on the topic of food, i've pretty much been living off of a few items that i can't seem to get enough of:

  • apples (preferably gala or braeburn) doused in cinnamon and dipped in better than peanut butter...yes i know it's "diet peanut butter", but regular peanut butter is just too rich for me to dip in enormous amounts at one time. i still use regular pb in everything else. skippy's natural all the way :)
  • oiko's 0% vanilla greek yogurt mixed with pumpkin, maple syrup, cinnamon, dashes of nutmeg and ginger, and whatever topping i feel like (peanut butter, dark chocolate chips, or kashi go lean cereal for crunch)
  • tribe roasted red pepper hummus slathered on la tortilla wraps with cucumer, shredded carrots, and spinach. sometimes turkey or a morning star veggie burger added in for protein.
  • copious amounts of hot tea :) most likely to be found in my mug-green tea, gingerbread spice, rooibos, and harney & son's hot cinnamon spice, aka the best drink to grace my mouth. seriously, if you love someone, buy them this stuff today.
ok so i just realized i have a serious cinnamon addiction i might need to get checked out...i literally put it almost in everything i eatt :)

anyways, it's time to bury my face in some poetry and explicate it in the form of a two page paper!! it's almost as exciting as listening to tiger woods drama on the news. no joke.

so for now......

ciao bella :)

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