now, i'm not saying chocolate isn't healthy ;) but let's just say copious amounts have been consumed.
and then in europe, it was tons of food and lots of this:
and i've basically turned into this hot guy:
and drank WAY too many of these:
let's just say i've gained quite a few pounds.
PLEASE DO NOT FRET! in no way am i going on a diet! HELL NO. that part of my life is over and done with. but i was just starting to feel blah. i do not think i am fat. i actually love my body and all of it's curves...except my boobs, but in due time ;)
the whole point of this post is to try to get some motivation. i feel like i'm just letting myself go in every aspect of my life, especially school. i sign out so much it's not even funny. i need to hear from you guys again! i know it's been so long since i've been blogging and maybe i need to start again.
health wise, i know i need to make some changes. here is my proposed plan:
-get at least 30 minutes of exercise daily.
-stop snacking all day long! it makes me feel so weighed down, and i know it's out of boredom. and because i have always been able to justify it because of ED.
-eat bigger breakfasts.
-eat at least one salad a day.
-funny side story: i have eaten this salad every day the past week and it is AMAZING, yet i almost made my mother and father throw up. maybe my taste buds are completely out of whack and i have no idea where i go this idea from, but here we go. my salad contains: a
shitload of spinach, turkey slices, shredded carrots, sliced red pepper, broccoli slaw,mushrooms, beets, a glob of sabra, a tbsp of peach jam, vegan parmesean cheese and balsamic vineagrette. crazy? yes. delicious? HELL YES.
-stop drinking so much diet coke. i was literally drinking 4-6 a day. for right now, i say 2 is my max. baby steps, people.
-try to eat more balanced meals. not just a bowl of fries because i can.
-portion control! now this sounds like a diet, but it's more like eat until i am full instead of so stuffed i just take a nap. yes, i do that almost everyday now.
-BLOG! i am missing you guys :)
maybe this wasn't the best thing to put on a former ED blog, but people can say what they want. i've been at the gym and eating better for about a week now and i feel 93245349857984375 times better! and my clothes still fit the same, so i'm assuming i'm not losing weight, which isn't my goal anyways. if anything, i just want to tone up :) i'm lifting more instead of solely relying on the treadmill. and i feel amazing. and i know this new healthy life i want to implement is not ED related because i am NOT afraid of fats. in fact, i love them! lemme holla at that almond butter and hummus :) have you read this amazing lady's post on fats? i don't count calories either, so don't ask.
sorry this post is so sporadic, but here are a couple of other side notes to serve as catch-ups:
-my back is still messed up. it is getting to where it always wakes me up at night. maybe i should get it checked out now that soccer is over. opinions?
-there are no boys in my life! weird, huh? :)
-i have taken two A.P. tests in the past two days. talk about a nightmare. (calculus tuesday, literature and comp. today)
-i am still awaiting my dorm assignment from n.c. state. i had one a few days ago, but apparently they had to go back and redo everyone's rooms. so for now, i'm homeless.
-almond butter is the new peanut butter. i'm in love.-graduation is june 15th! counting down the days...still no word on whether i'll be valedictorian!
-i feel like i have so much more to talk about, but now that i'm blogging i'm sure i'll be back to talk!
-in the meantime, here are some random pictures...
senior night...last soccer game!
n.c. state senior send-off dinner
they got nothin' on you, baby
failed attempt at get an au naturale tan.
another prom pic.
bffs since elementary school :)
first dance to last prom, baby!
exciting news coming up, stay tuned!