oh, hey college.

ok, so maybe its been four months since my last post. i dont care. because i will be starting a new blog documenting my college experience thus far in the near future. in the meantime, enjoy these photos of the past four months :) things got crazy...

myrtle beach trips

rainy john mayer concerts with my roommate and best friend

my hair is wavy?

i will let you determine if there was alcohol involved.

foodie roommate <3

a possible stolen shopping cart that we named bubba who was possibly smuggled home in the back of my possible honda civic.

and then i moved into collee. NCSU BABY! :)

dorm room...

represent the wolfpack :)

see the multicolored pig? meet young money.

NCSUs belltower. it lights up red when we win. thats me, by the way.

PANERA!

terrible idea. cinnabon+cran grape + peanut butter+milk+fake milk.

playing on the wolves on central campus.

ludacris concert on campus. refer to this song if anything about this picture confuses you. 

one word: keylimepiefrozenyogurt.

partayyy!

fierce.

i have never been happier. 

time for a nap...class is over, and i need to recoup from my two a.m. three mile walk to ihop last night.

chocolate chip pancakes with a side of egg whites and turkey bacon. for health reasons, of course :) 

ill leave you with my current favorite quote...

"Do one thing everyday that scares you. Sing. Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours. Floss. Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself."

<3 ciao bella

difficult post ahead

i have kind of a difficult post ahead. possibly life-changing, possibly meaningless. we'll see. lots of pictures, too :)


in the  meantime, i've eaten a few new things lately that might hint around at what i'm going to post about.

ok, so i only have had a change to try one. i had the wholesome original...the one in the middle. i was a little sketched out about it looking at the ingredients, but i'm always wanting to try new things so i dove in.  it was AWESOME.  the flavor was very mellow, and i could taste and SEE the indivudal ingredients.  it was very filling with 9g of protein and left me feeling superb. now i must find a place to buy them cheaply...

peaut butter and honey drizzle with raisin sandwich. weird and just what i was craving :)

i am going to try this bar shortly

looks scrumptious.  i guess anything with chocolate is haha.

anyways, i just bought one of these, so i'm going to go test it out on a short run.

ciao bella

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quarters, boot camp, and tofu

hey! work is going unimaginably well...yet tiring as hell.  thankfully, i have today and tomorrow off because i have to go to Duke for my final ED checkup :) as much as i love getting out of my small town and heading to Durham, it is nice knowing i won't have to see an ED doctor any longer.

thursday night, i worked 12 hours; i worked until 2:30 in the morning. woah. tips were rollin', though.  there was a huge party of guys there from some kind of firm, and two were looking at me all night and finally asked my name.  they were quite nice to look at, i might add (and AUSTRALIAN) :) it was flattering for awhile, but it got to be downright creepy.  they asked me to take me them home because they were hammered, but i politely refused.  friday, i worked until 1:00 in the morning, and saturday i got off at 9:30.  i can't complain...i've made hundreds ;)

mom and dad came to visit me one night, and my dad and i ended up playing quarters on the bar.  after awhile, we attracted quite the crowd. 

our family might be dysfunctional, but i love 'em!

i finally had some motivation this morning to hop off my lazy butt and do some work.  i had purchased a boot camp dvd a longg time ago, and went to work.  HOLY %&*^&.  i don't know what word that was, but it's what i was saying the entire 55 minutes.  billy kicked my BUTT.  i was literally dripping sweat from head to toe by the end, but i felt amazing.  i will be continuing the dvd :)

on the foodie front, i've been eating HORRIBLY lately, and my body can tell. i'm going back and eating more clean and healthy foods.  no worries, there will be cake in there too.  80/20, peeps.  i started today because i once read that mondays were the best days to start a new habit! i worked out and ate pretty well.

breakfast was homemade french toast made with 3 slices whole wheat bread, 2 egg whites, splash of lactaid, cinnamon, vanilla, a small banana, and sf maple syrup. sorry, it got demolished so no pictures.

lunch was a flatout wrap with sabra roasted red pepper hummus, shredded carrots, and a few vegan peperoni slices.  on the side, i had an apple dipped in plain greek yogurt mixed with just a little sf maple syrup.  no pictures, nothing to write home about. delicious, nonetheless. somewhere inbetween lunch and dinner, i had the remaineder of my greek yogurt (1/2 cup?) with some kashi honey toasted cereal and sf maple syrup, again. i should lay off of that.

now as my post title implies, i had some tofu for dinner. in the past, i've bought it and ended up having to throw it out becuase i never used it.  i've always been intimidated when actually cooking my own food.  i make my own food a lot, but nothing that doesn't take over five minutes.  i was feeling up to the task tonight, and tofu sounded pretty good.

enter kristin's grilled asian tofu.

obviously, mine didn't look as nice and pretty as hers, but it sure was tasty.

marinating...

grilled in the foreman, topped with sesame seeds.

i also stole her idea of using the rest of the marinade to sautee up some spinach and brown rice. genius.

three pieces of tofu and a blog later, i'm one happy girl.

ciao bella

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so this is what it's like

as of approximately 7:00 last night, i became a high school graduate;  an adult in the real world.  my childhood is officially behind me, and i'm about to embark on MY new life without my family. woah...talk about surreal. 

the ceremony was amazing.  ever since 9th grade, i had been number on in my class, but things changed that the VERY last second and i was salutatorian in the end.  last second as in i was still valedictorian up until two weeks ago.  oh well...i was upset at first, but it's really no big deal. with everything i've been through, i know i'm lucky to be where i am today.  i may have not been the best student either, so i know i should definitely be happy with being second in the class.

a lot has changed since the last time i've posted.  i've become so much more lackadasical about my food choices.  i eat pretty poorly at times, but i've now found the motivation to exercise and live a healthy, balanced lifestyle.  honestly, i've never been happier.  i don't know how much i weigh and i don't care too.  when i go to the doctor to get my immunizations for college, i intend of having them not tell me what it is.  life is so much easier when living blindy, sometimes.  words really can't describe how lucky i consider myself.  i continue to read blogs of girls still stricken with an eating disorder, and i think about how i know exactly where they are. because i've been there, too.  i want them to read this and know that it is possible to recover.  i'm here where i am today because of the outpouring of strength and love given to me by my family and friends around me, as well as my own personal power that i never knew i had. 

on a lighter note, there is a new boy in my life.  a great one, at that.  unfortunately, i won't see him all summer because he is in the army national guard, and will be at basic training all summer. ugh. at least he will be at N.C. State with me in August, though :)

i start work tomorrow as a waitress, so wish me luck guys!

now that i'm an adult and all, i gotta bring in that bankk ;)

ciao bella

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“If you can imagine it, you can achieve it; if you can dream it, you can become it.”

wrapping up

hey guys! i've been so busy the last couple weeks of school. i will NEVER understand why teacher give so much stuff at the very last minute to do, especially senior year! along with award's day next week, academic banquet, scholarships, birthdays, and graduation arrangements, i also have a calculus project, two ap lit papers, my memory book due, and a calculus and animal science test thursday. 

with that said, i need to go do some work because i just got back from the gym.  i was proud of myself! i did five minutes on the treadmill going 6.0 mph while i was waiting for the elliptical to open up.  i don't really like the treadmill because i always have a problem with my shoulders grinding and it hurts  like HELL  very badly.  the elliptical doesn't seem to affect it as badly.  when one finally opened, i was on it for about 40 minutes and went 4.15 miles.  yes, that may not be much for some people, but for me it was very good.  and like this wise lady said today, don't compare yourself to others; let it motivate you! be proud of YOUR accomplishments :)

one last thing...one of my papers for ap lit is supposed to be a problem-solution paper.  it can be any topic that you feel strongly about in society.  at first i really struggled to find something that i could write about, so i walked into the library and i shit you not, the first book on the self was male anorexia.  now, you all know if you have been reading this that i had it so i feel strongly about it, but no one really ever gives much thought to males experiencing eating disorders.  it struck me instantly that i was writing my paper on this.  i'd really appreciate you guys' opinions on the topic or any information that you think would be helpful!

off to do work!

yesterday's 'fit.

i'll leave you with webcam boredom...

ciao bella